Msg.

Thankyou for that v. unexpected msg from you.
It actually bring to me that,there's still kind soul around^^
Even though it is not a few pages of msg,
it still make me feel bless.

Kill the complicated,save the innocent.

Am loving the current.
everything,just everything around me.
without your presence,i still feel secure.
i still feel alright.
I thought things will start to change to the worst,
but it didn't.
Unbelievable but true.
This time round,i'm so going prove you wrong.
(;

I won't be blogging sooon.
till like lets say,next week?
new blog in progress.
won't be leaking out my new blog link.
i need privacy,somewhere to keep my feelings,memories,
from this cruel world.
It might sound funny,
but i need a place to vent my anger,share my happiness.
A place to keep my secret.
I don't trust anyone now,i learnt my lesson.
Really sorry,but till i forget those bad memories.
It's killing me,really.

I know my title looks weird,
but yeahhhhhh.
I really have my lesson learn,
stay away from the complicated.

P/s: To that someone,i'm willing to do so if you just let me see your sincerity.
I'm willing to sacrifice for you,if i see your effort.
Because i fear to be disappointed by you all over again.
When out of the sudden,someone whom means so much to be,
broke my heart that hard,that badly.
Let's work hard together and go back to where we're once/

Pp/s: Don't say i didn't.
I did,just that you didn't sense it.
Why for fake it off?
I don't understand,what really is your real intention?
I really don't understand.
It really take 2 hands to clap,
really.

Still,deep in my heart.
I wish to have someone lending ear to hear my problem,
a shoulder that need not be strong for me to lie when i cry.
Someone who'll be there for me,need not be 24/7.
Someone who can appreciate me,
Someone who i can take out my mask when I talk to.
Someone who should _ _ _care oh-so-much about their _ _ _ _ _ _ _.
What is friendship?
What is love?

H1N1

School will not be cancel,
!@#$%^&*().
anyway,back to school yesterday for Ss+Chem.
Chem was later on cancelled):
after that,ME+BBEI+F+WF+PY headed to central.
we sit outside the bench eating maggie,wtf(!)
& i had my great strawberrymilkteaaaaa,
everyone should try:D
yeahhhhhhh,life is a bore now.
alright,off now.
rings still not yet arrive(!)
should i go ROTT this weekend?
P/s: I'll change to a private blog soon.

I refuse to put in any more hope right now.
The more i wished for,
the more disappointed i got in the end.

Special day

On this special day,
i wish to tell you.
How much you mean to me,
more than anyone else in the whole world.
protecting me since young,
giving me the best you could,
never failed to care for me.
you're the one who develop the love-in-book in me,
you let me have the freedom to let me choose the kind of book i like.
you're the one who told me bedtimes stories when young,
always making up new one so i won't get bored easily.
you're the only one who i share my friendship problem with,
when i'm young.
i appreciate everything you done for me,
even though never one thanks you.
you're the one,who always protect me when i get bullied by _.
even though at times,i might be at wrong.
but still,without fail,you stand by me.
without you,i won't be as strong as i'm today.
without you,i would have break down long ago.
even though i alway do things that make you angry/sad,
you never once scold me.
even though i failed my exam,
you'll only tell me to work harder,but never scold.
i fear one day i might lose you,
cause you're way too important to me.
Daddy,iloveyou.
i really do.
No words can describe how important you're to me.
hope you like the present i get for you.

Awesome day.

Short fringe):
Saw my title?
:D
Today is the date with Emmzack,MARZIE.
got so much to blog about(!)
first,met her at schoolstop.
wanted to go in school,but school is closed(!)
there goes my chem file,rawr.
after we reached jp,went 7-11 to get pau.
& WE SNEAKED IT IN,wooooo.
and when i started eating,she was like,'EH,JIAYING,DON'T EAT'.
haha,damn funnyy.
but after that she also started eating,lol.
after that we talked about hunks+babes<: SHE & HER PROPORTIONAL GUY,lmao. crazy girl studying harddddddd.
and she damn funny can,she smell her ARMPIT & SAY.
eh,my armpit smell nice leis,WTFFFFFFFF RIGHT.
i know your deodorant very nice las,rawr.
& she was messaging GX,wtf.
some very funny guy,ended up messaging him for a while.
& damn pms,i got cramps for the whole morning.
wtf(!) x123456789.
hurt damn badly.
& i had to go toilet several times,ignoring shit.
ME+MARZIE+KH all having pms,
& Bbei told me she having it also.
Such a coincidence righttttttt.
damn crazy please,all saved after appling my MEDICATED-OIL.
don't know why,Marzie+KeunHee+Sumyat+Florence all hate the smell.
it smell damn nice okayyyyyy,not as good as JIXIANG thou/
anyway,WE SAW KEUNHEE THERE(!)
she cut her hair wayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy short. CUTE OR WHAT,:D
which i swear i'll never cut that short everrrrrrrr.
went for lunch at 1pm.
my cramps get a lil better(!)
lunch at Banquet,first time eating there.
I know,HOW CAN RIGHT.
but yeah,i alway go Kopitiam.
i alway thought Banquet food are all malay food-.-
after lunch,went pet shop.
& something friggingly funny thing happened.
there was this dog at the counter.
Marzie was infront of me,
then she was like 'GOT DOG!.' hide*
cause she cannot touch dog whatttt.
WHILE i hide behind her,
cause I FREAKINGLY SCARE OF MOVING THINGS.
WHICH INCLUDE ALL ANIMAL EXCEPT FISH^^
Some lucky dog being groomed, wish i could have it tooo. she got food for her cat.Meow~
went Watson to get her deodorant,
ended up ME+KEUNHEE keep smelling all the diff types there.
went to get sweets at Minitoon,my fave<: LASTLY,WE WENT KIDDY PALACE.
they taught me piano,& started delicating songs to meeee.
awwwwwwww,damn nice please.
tonghua+apologise etccccccccc.
Marzie promise to teach me piano after 'O'.
can't wait(!)
& i swear KeunHee+Marzie play damn nice cannnnnnnn.
ENVY*
aftermath,marzie+me headed home.
while KeunHee went back to library.
MORE DATES SOON,after my ignoring pms stop(!)
anyway,HEADED OUT YESTERDAY.
to EyeResearchCentre.
spent a crazy 3hours day waiting for mummy DOING PRACTIALLY
NOTHING.
my mum got selected to go this eye screening,
& the people are so ignoring,pestering my mum to go):
so i accompany her to go,SO NICE RIGHT.
anyway,am off now.
MARZIE IS WAITING FOR MY POST.
see hers @emmzack.blogspot.com
MISS YOU ZIEZIE.
KIAMPA.
AHAHAH.

HAIRCUT.

Bye long fringe.
I went to have a cut for my fringe.
become way shorter(!)
F accompany go cause she was suppose to have a hair treatment.
but the person not there yet so she waited for me
:D
THANKKKKKKK SOULMATE,(WTF!)
oh before that we had math remedial-.-
boring shitttttt,both of us were eating cereal+listeningsong
& she send me new themes,hohohoho.
homed after that.
B.O.R.I.N.G :O
out tomorrow,
out on sat w Blackteh(!) to study~
:D
she v super can,overslept today.
NO WONDER NEVER SEE HER(!)
alright,off nowww.
:D

Homeworks done.

Met F at jp 9.30am
but i reached jp at 9.15am.
freaking early,so went Fairprice to get cereal:Dhaven try the cookie crisp yet.
bringing to school tml,hohohs.
anyway,I FINISHED MY PHY+POA ALREADY.
:D
just a few qns don't know how to do);
not i don't want do okay:D
went Kopitiam to eat after that,full with people):
hohohohohs.
she very funny can,keep call me don't take cause she eating.
but i don't care:D
there is a ss remedial tomorrow,people must go okay.
& after ss remedial,i'm going central to cut fringe.
cannot stand it anymore,!@$%^&.
way too irritatingggggg.
anyway,THINK YOU SO CLEVER?
try guessing this,
Haha,bet you don't know.:P
even F don't know okay.
hhahahaha.
CUTE RIGHT?
(;
off now.
byebye,hohoho.

It felt so great to be back.
The feeling of joy can never be describe.
Happy to see Yb once again,miss you like crazyyyy.
:D
frigging love your pink nails.
& i know you're reading right nowww
:D
glad to know the crazy bunch of your.
tues will never be the same anymore/

Inner thoughts.

sometimes,
when it is a simple peaceful life,
people tend to see it complicated,
making it feel life is painful and hard.
if only they know how much one is suffering behind,
how much one shed tears,
how much one tolerate,
how much one showing a strong front.
they thought they're alway right,
but have they think carefully.
when they have so much doubt in their mind,
but ended up filling the blanks on their own
& jumping to conclusion.
In fact,all they need is to ask,
make things clear.
but all what they did was making things difficult.
& all this make one feel painful,sufforcating.
so you call yourself friends/family?
& you ended up pushing blames on others,
BUT,have you think carefully.
he/she might be at fault,
how about you?
letting yourself go off easily?
have you ever think carefully?
the smile that put on face might be fake.
the words that come out might be fake.
that laughter that sound might be fake.
but what for someone put a fake front?
because one is suffering inside,
trying to escape.
you think it feels great.
no,it suck to think that someone you love,cherish
doesnt know what you're thinking.
because of your dignity.
it's important,to me too.
but,what's the mouth on your face for?
after hearing each conclusion,
it pain my heart.
never ever in my life i would have thought of it.
dissapointed with a capital D.
it set me thinking,i took 3steps back.
maybe i was expecting way too much from you.
& all the hopes just tanish.
i don't blame it on you.
i just thought,how did things ended up like this.
never before.
true to say,
even my patience have a limit.
one day,when you reached that limit.
i have to say,maybe it's the best not to find you anymore.
i can see how you suffered just like me,
i tried to give in,
but only it tore my heart right into half.
i don't know what you're thinking.
if only you'll tell me.
if only you'll share with me.
but never,
so stop jumping into wrong conclusion again.
you wished i could understand you a little better,
but the true fact was,
you're never open to me.
maybe,
you're just not ready.
maybe right from the start,
i never once know what you're thinking.
what you're trying to do.
way too complicated.
and i'm not at all curious to find out,
cause one day,you'll realise.
what for make a simple things feel so complicated?
what's the use.
i chose to remain numb right at the start,
if i say my thoughts out,
it's not only hurting me but you too.
because i treat you as someone important,
i choose to keep quiet.


P/s: stop asking who i'm refering.
please stop jumping to wrong conclusion.
do you feel great when the police accuse you for stealing
when you're not?
when the teacher accuse you for cheating
when you're not?
when your closest friend accuse you for betraying
when you're not?
TELL ME,HOW YOU FEEL.

Addictivezxzzzz.

Because I'm Stupid is niceee,i swear.

Because Im Stupid - StillNotDavid

LYRICS :

VERSE 1:
Because I'm so stupid and such a fool
My eyes don't see nobody but you
Even though I know you love someone else
You could never know the pain that I felt
Oh oh oh

VERSE 2:
You probably never think of me at all
And I know we have no memories
But the one who really wants you is me
In the end only my tears will fall

BRIDGE 1:
I stay, you walk away
I stand back, watching you day by day
You can't see that I'm so in love with you
Like the wind you just fly right through (ohhhhh)

CHORUS 1 :
There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch
"I love you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left crying for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

VERSE 3:
You'll probably never have a dream of me
And I know I'm in love all alone
That's why we don't really have memories
In the end, I'll make them all on my own

BRIDGE 2:
Love's like a river of tears
That will flow whenever you're not here
Even though your heart will never be mine
It's enough just seeing you smile

CHORUS 2:
There are days when I see nothing but rain
There are days when I just feel so much pain
"I miss you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left wishing for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

VERSE 4:
Bye, bye, never say goodbye
Even though it's not me by your side
I need you , I just can't say it but I want you
I cannot stop wishing for you

CHORUS 3:
There are days when I just miss you so much
There are days when I just long for your touch
"I love you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left crying for you
There are days when I see nothing but rain
There are days when I just feel so much pain
"I miss you" somehow flies right off my lips and so
Once again I'm left wishing for you
Once again I'm left here missing you
Baby I love you I'm waiting for you

:DD
i left 8 qns of poa to go.
am i genius or what.
AHAHAHAHAH(!)
finished 1set of phy already.
left 2 more to go(!)(!)
out tomorrow to studyyyy.
need to sneak food from 7-11 in,hohohohs.
BYE.
(;

boring shit day.
paid for my ring already.
hope it arrive asap.
i feel hungry.
had tempuramaki+maki for dinner.
bye.

it takes two hands to clap.

am f.hungry.

boring shit day.
paid for my ring already.
hope it arrive asap.
i feel hungry.
had tempuramaki+maki for dinner.
bye.

it takes two hands to clap.

Weirdest dream

I got no idea why everytime i got such weird dream.
first was the nightmare,i was attempting to commitsuidice.
& when i woke up i was almost late for school,
when sumyat thought i wasn't comming for school.
& yesterday,i dreamt again.
of something freakingly funnnnnny.
i dream of shading some lottery sheetz at overseas with 4e1 people.
& THE SHEETZ is freakingly funny.
and when i told bbei about it,
she told me to design it in Sg.
Rah,v.random.

Anyway,guess what i did today.
Spent my noon play pokemon on my phone.
ADDICTIVEZXZZZZ.
must stop myself somehowwwwwww.
& START DOING PHYSICS SHIT.
got 3 worksheets and not even 1 is done yet.
freaked me outtttttttttttt pleasezxzzzzzz.

Right now,
i hope prelim1 will end quickly.
i'm desperate to head out.
I KNOW I KNOW,I SHOUDLN'T
i want go picnic at botaniccccc with bbeiiiiiii):

Can't wait to go out tomorrow.
('.')
miss bbei.

off nowwwwwwwww.
:D

:D
IMISSBBEI.
SEEYOU ON SUN(!)(!)

p/s: I GOT MY LORMEE TODAY.
now i feel like having Mos):

12.31am

Wanted to stay longer,
but Marziemum+Blackteh called me to sleep.
like my mother canzxzzzzzz,lmao.
Told her alot of craps in msn,
me+the catz.
MUAHAHAHHAHAHA.
don't tell anyone hor,or else everyone scare of me:X
ANYWAY.
FORGOT TO MENTION.
NO TEDDYBEAR FOR ME TONIGHT.
i washed it in the morning.
& thought that
HOW CAN A WASHING MACHINE BE THAT HARD TO
OPERATE.
ESP WHEN I'M CLARISSACHUA.
so i on it.
& got SHOCK when i see water comming out.
i wanted to dry wash my bear.
ENDED UP WATER COME OUT.
* Insert Wennie's JawDrop Action *
totally shock canzxz.
& i finally give up.
I swear washing machine very hard to use canzxzzzzzz.
& i know you're laughing right now,
don't know how to use next time how to marry right.
I CAN FIND A HUSBAND WHO KNOW HOW TO USE OKAY-.-
blah.
ANYWAY,am offf now.
Or else MMUM will nag at me again-.-
BYE.

p/s: I FEEL LIKE EATING LORMEE+ICECREAM+CHICKENPORRIDGE
+PONTIANMEE+BANMIAM+POPIAH+LAKSA+FISH&CHIP
+MOSBURGER.
AH.SHIT.

Busy like a bee.

I felt so guilty,
after hearing that Py did 2wks of poa,
WHEN I HAVEN EVEN TOUCH ANY.
wonderful,so i rushed it over the noon today.
out of 30 qns,i managed to complete 12.
18 more to go(!)(!)
& THE 18 MORE IS FRIGGINGLY HARD OKAY.
you think as easy as abc ah,rawr.
FURTHERMORE,i still got phy& geo left untouch.(!)(!)
wonderful,wonderful.
what a nice holiday. T.T

Anyway,whole of this week,
i have been receiving WEIRD msg practically every single day.
Firstly,got one msg and say, Ni hao mah,ni zai na li.
wtf,i was having bad mood.
so i replied,Hen hao de,ni msg wo jiu bu hao.
lol(!).
Secondly,there is this opening of clinic?
msg me to attend their opening,when i fringingly never go that clinic before?
Thirdly,someone who is selling specs-.-
Creepy ehhhhhhh-.-

& tml i'll be out.
O.U.T
so i wont be blogging tml.
:D
& i have decided to get 2 new rings,(;
silverwing+goldwing.

Am going off nowwwwwwwwwwwwww.
(;
Amazing Marzie KNOW WHAT I'm TYPING(!)(!)
:D

BYE.

At least i know right now.
Where i'm.

蔡佳颖，时间不会为你而停留。
要勇敢。
心情非常的不好。

Freaking funny

Someone talked to me in msn,
& i wondered who the hell he/she was.
ended up is wennieee,
she's angry cause i don't know who's she.
don't angry las lianrongpao,
school reopen i buy lianrongpao for you kae? (;

Anyway,i slept at 2+am.
awaesome.
i need to order new shirt,
can't resist the temptation,damnnnnn.
Should I or should I notttttt.
or go ROTT get clothes?
Rah.

I guess i don't really care.

What am i thinking

It is 11.55pm right now.
& i'm still here.
Still awake,far from sleepy.
my sleeping time have turned haywire.
waking at wee hours & ended up sleeping at the noon.
something worth mentioning,
I FINALLY know how to do A,B&S.
wtf,satisfied anottttttttttttt<;
ANYWAY,
I AM SO GOING ROTT(;
shut up if you don't know what is ROTT;P
It's officially 12am now.
Off now.
not sleeping,cause i don't feel like to.
& i got the best dream yesterday ever.
i hope it'll come true,but kid who.
It won't.
Bye.

I dreaded the thought of it.
Whenever i close my eyes,
images of it started to appear,
without fail,
trying to hard to get use,
but i just can't.
trying so hard to forget,
true enough,
you're playing another game of hide&seek again.
It just can't stop but flow out yet,again.

Rawr.

Internet speed+Weather suck big time.
wtf can.

Happy Birthday Mummyyy♥

Today is 6June,which is Mummy birthday(!)
& also Bbei's Kim Hyun Joong birthday:D
KimBum more handsome luh;X
the moment he smile can melt you canzxzzzzzzzz.
Rah,anyway.
Went out at 11 today.
Bluff mummy that I'm going school,wth i know-.-
hahahas,went to the mend shoe stand.
waited for bbei shoe to be repair-.-
& FREAKINGLY GUESS WHAT.
i saw that guy againnnnn,lucky or what.
bbei so called 'young' & 'handsome' one.
PLEASEZXZZZZ,disgusting-.-
i feel like digging his eyes out las.
& bbei give me stupid ideas on how to deal with him-.-
went Jp after that,blahblah.
v. boringggg.
i saw alot pretty shoe+bags,tempted*
went to have lunch.
waited for gorgor to come finddd meeeee,
went library instead-.-
went to Jp after gorgor finish work.
went to swesens & get blackforest cake;D
went homeee.
LOLS,boring,i knowwwww-.-
slept for 1hr+.
went to meet Bbei at 7-11 for cheap thrill:D
i got MrHappy+MrBump+MrGreedy+LittleMissChatterbox.
bbei say chatterbox suit me,rah-.-
I want Tiny+Strong+Sunshine-.-
rah,off to eat cake now.
Bye.

When you get a step nearer,
i got a step back.
When i get a step forward,
you stay there and pretended.
What is this.
If only you know what i wanted in the first place.

Happy children

Don't you just love the picture at the top?
Happy faces never failed to make me smile ^^

Yet so much (♥)

(♥) you all people,
for the presents+wishes.
not in any order,
AuntieminaBbei,Andersonsister,SumyatAuntie,FlorenceElephant,
Peiyingzehzeh,Huishengzehzeh,Wennie,Wanfeimeimei,
Mazidayu,Fengheng,H.Junwei,Q.Junwei,Atifah,
Gorgors,Cassandrameimei,Kaixuan,Minhui,Zanis's Daughter
Bbei for your lp,Sumyat+F+C for your IcingRmCake,
Py for your zebrapouch,hs for your charm,
2nd gorgor for your magicegggyy,1st gorgor for your choco.
mummy for your cake,fh for your cake+mos
minhui for your shirt,
Zanis's daughter for your (♥) msg! @ emmzack.blogspot.com
(♥) you all,x123456789.
1 year older,time to be more mature and work towards my goal<: had Chi O yesterday, hope can get A,pleasezxzzzzzzzz.
had Math Olympial today,
boring shit,wanted to sleep can.
cause i freakingly don't know how to do
& lazy to kill my brain cells for this.
(!)(!)
WENT TO 907 FOR LUNCH:D
me(♥).
hohohos.
Bbei+Auntiemyat+Elephant+Joni+Wennie+Peiying+Huisheng
:D
too sad wanfei+keunheee not here):
AM OFF TO WATCH BOF NOW.
few more parts onlyyyyyyyyyyyy.
:DDDD
BYE.

/edit.
sometimes i really think,
is this really worth it.
now i think back.
as foolish as ever.
as naive as ever.
time to wake.
time to start running.
so not worth it.
time to wake to reality.
thought you're important,
but not anymore.
like a stain which i wish to erase.

Someday i wish,
i could do something,
just a little of something.
Something sweet.

P/s: I finished BOF already(;
PP/S: Anyone got Candles-Hey Monday
& Climb-Miley Cyrus ,please do a kind deed& send me.
(;