Inner thoughts.

sometimes,
when it is a simple peaceful life,
people tend to see it complicated,
making it feel life is painful and hard.
if only they know how much one is suffering behind,
how much one shed tears,
how much one tolerate,
how much one showing a strong front.
they thought they're alway right,
but have they think carefully.
when they have so much doubt in their mind,
but ended up filling the blanks on their own
& jumping to conclusion.
In fact,all they need is to ask,
make things clear.
but all what they did was making things difficult.
& all this make one feel painful,sufforcating.
so you call yourself friends/family?
& you ended up pushing blames on others,
BUT,have you think carefully.
he/she might be at fault,
how about you?
letting yourself go off easily?
have you ever think carefully?
the smile that put on face might be fake.
the words that come out might be fake.
that laughter that sound might be fake.
but what for someone put a fake front?
because one is suffering inside,
trying to escape.
you think it feels great.
no,it suck to think that someone you love,cherish
doesnt know what you're thinking.
because of your dignity.
it's important,to me too.
but,what's the mouth on your face for?
after hearing each conclusion,
it pain my heart.
never ever in my life i would have thought of it.
dissapointed with a capital D.
it set me thinking,i took 3steps back.
maybe i was expecting way too much from you.
& all the hopes just tanish.
i don't blame it on you.
i just thought,how did things ended up like this.
never before.
true to say,
even my patience have a limit.
one day,when you reached that limit.
i have to say,maybe it's the best not to find you anymore.
i can see how you suffered just like me,
i tried to give in,
but only it tore my heart right into half.
i don't know what you're thinking.
if only you'll tell me.
if only you'll share with me.
but never,
so stop jumping into wrong conclusion again.
you wished i could understand you a little better,
but the true fact was,
you're never open to me.
maybe,
you're just not ready.
maybe right from the start,
i never once know what you're thinking.
what you're trying to do.
way too complicated.
and i'm not at all curious to find out,
cause one day,you'll realise.
what for make a simple things feel so complicated?
what's the use.
i chose to remain numb right at the start,
if i say my thoughts out,
it's not only hurting me but you too.
because i treat you as someone important,
i choose to keep quiet.


P/s: stop asking who i'm refering.
please stop jumping to wrong conclusion.
do you feel great when the police accuse you for stealing
when you're not?
when the teacher accuse you for cheating
when you're not?
when your closest friend accuse you for betraying
when you're not?
TELL ME,HOW YOU FEEL.